In Awe and Unsettled

As we speak, I'm sitting in the middle of a blob of reds and purples on the radar. Outside, the rain is falling at a steady and torrential pace. More frequently than not, the sky lights up with bright flashes. A few seconds later, the skies rumble and the ground shake. And I simply sit in awe. 

"Your thunder was heard in the whirlwind,
your lightning lit up the world;
the earth trembled and quaked."

Psalm 77:18 

Every single time it storms, I am in awe at God's power and strength. Yes, God is a loving god. Yes, He is kind, merciful, and caring. But He is so much more than just that! He is massive, powerful, controlling, strong, and incomprehensible. For some reason, I can see God more clearly than any other time when it storms. 

The boys I'm babysitting -- one loves the storms, the other doesn't yet. He's at the age where it's not cool to be scared anymore, but storms still terrify him. The crashes catch him off guard and the lightning is unsettling. And I completely understand; maybe I should be more like him! 

In the face of a perfect and holy God, maybe I should be unsettled. Yes, I should be in awe. Yes, I should fall before his wonder. But He is unlike anything else in this world: bigger, more powerful, and more massive than anything I've ever known. Just like a massive thunderstorm is bigger and more powerful than anything this 3rd grader has ever seen. 

Holy God, teach me to be unsettled by You. Show me that I will never be able to fully grasp how powerful You are, and that that should scare me a little. Keep sending me storms so I can sit in awe of your power. Never let me feel too familiar with you -- you aren't a god I can keep in my pocket; you are God.